Frustrated and Confused

Ok. Where do I start. Last week I went to the gym Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, I planned on going Friday night, but it didn't happen. I did go to the zoo Friday though and walked all over it, so I still got some exercise in. Saturday I went to Dollywood and walked all over and pushed a wheel chair almost the whole time, so I got exercise that day too. So Saturday I did my weekly weigh in and measurements. It was devastating. When I measured I had gained 32 inches total in one week. That is anywhere from a month to three months worth of work depending on which area I compared, that I had gained back in one week. When I weighed, I had just eaten not long before, but I had gained .6 pounds. Now... I know there is a LOT I don't have any idea about when it comes to health stuff. However, I also know there was no way possible I could gain 32 inches and not even gain a pound. It simply wasn't possible. So after lots of sitting here in disbelief. I measured again, something had to have been wrong before. My results that time were better but still horrible. My final measurements had me gaining 17 inches. I reweighed later too, longer after I'd eaten, and my final weight loss was .8 pounds. Now I have yet to be able to figure out HOW that is possible. How do you lose weight and GAIN 17 inches?!?!? HOW??? So tomorrow I am going to have a long talk with my trainer and figure out what is going on, because something is obviously not working. So anyway, after that weigh in, I was very confused, and even more frustrated. And Sunday I didn't care about any of it, I didn't want to fool with it, what was the point anyway? So I ate some stuff that I should never eat since my surgery. I didn't take my vitamins and calcium, I didn't get my protein in, I didn't get my water in, and I didn't care. I found some way to justify everything I did. And then when I sat down last night, and started thinking about it all.... I did care. I felt horrible. I took the first step towards throwing EVERYTHING I have worked so hard for away. I started doing the one thing that I have been scared to death of since surgery. I started eating in ways that would stretch my tummy. I started eating like I would have before. Now no, I didn't eat as much as I would have before, and no, I didn't eat everything I would have before. But I ate more than I should have, and things I shouldn't have. So since I am obviously struggling alot, and I have to make sure I don't go back to where I started at 4 months ago, I am going to start posting what I eat on here. I would ask that you all please continue to support me and help me stay focused on what I need to be doing.

Today I had a half peanut butter sandwich with some kashi cereal on it. (I know, it sounds terrible, but it kinda tastes like crunchy peanut butter and it is high in protein) And then later I had a half wrap with chicken, ham, cheese, and some honey dijan on it. I did take my vitamins today and my calcium. I haven't gotten enough water in today. I guess I only had about 40 ounces so far. I didn't get enough protein in today either. I am supposed to have between 62-74 grams of protein a day, and I had 50 today. I need to do better on that. The problem is that I only ate twice today, so it is very hard to get in enough protein when I'm not eating enough.

Now for today's workout. I went to the gym and ended up getting in the pool and doing my workout there today. I did 10 minutes each on the bike, the treadmill, and the elliptical going forward, and then 10 minutes going backwards as well. I did 10 times across the pool doing lunges, 50 leg lifts on each leg going forward, back, and to the side, and 10 minutes of rowing motion with the exercise band. All that was done with 2 floating weights on each leg. I then swam 10 laps in the pool. And finished off with 10 minutes in the hot tub. I was really hesitant to do much right now, until I can talk to my trainer, because I'm afraid I may be OVER doing my workouts or something.

Anyway, I just ask again that anyone out there who reads this or is following my journey to please continue to support and help me stay on track. I am really struggling right now, and I have to be careful or I will make the surgery and everything I have done since then a waste of time and energy. Thanks for the support you all give. I will be posting a lot more, at least for right now.